I truly believe that God works in mysterious ways and uses different ways to remind us that our focus should always be on how we can fill ourselves with more of him and less of us/the world.
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for the past 13 months and every month I breakdown when I realise we haven’t conceived.
Over the past couple of months, I have focused on trying to fill myself with Christ rather than on my “situation,” however, my monthly flow started this morning and I broke down in the bathroom and sobbed before I headed to work.
For the past couple of days, during my quiet time and at just random moments, God has reminded me to be grateful for what he has given me and be content. He has also reminded me of how he looks after those he calls his and urges us to be obedient to his will and trust his timing. He is teaching me to understand that his ways are higher than mine and his timing is always best. But today was especially difficult because I really taught this month would be it. While in the car, on my way to work, I spent about half of the journey in tears. Once at work, I sent my driver out to run some errands and within an hour, he called me to inform me that he had been in an accident. There had been a collision involving multiple cars but no one was hurt.
Though this month, we were not blessed with a child, I believe God used this situation to remind me of his sovereignty and the how faithful he is in other areas of our lives. Why worry and stress, when I have a Father that loves me and works in my favour.
So I am truly grateful to God and I am actually happy for these months I have had to wait and however many more months I have to wait. “I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. But he said to me, “My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me.” 2 Corinthians 12: 8-9. This may be a thorn in my Flesh but like Paul, I have come to realise that God’s Grace is all I need and that I should trust the process.
I would like to urge anyone going through any challenge or trusting God for a breakthrough to not let that challenging situation become to focal point of your life. God is doing so much more within and around you. Focus on him and just watch the rest fall into place. Remember, His grace is enough for you and his power is made perfect in weakness